History

And so i woke up realized everything was a charade,take it and move on...forgive and forget,i told myself,i'm just too blessed to sad.Reminiscing is sucks.No point turning back.["Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it."-the life of reason,volume 1:1905] I tell you what?Human learns things by doing.No pain,no gain.So,go around your way, play,have fun,trip and fall,knocked down and get up.As i recall,last month was a mess.I repeated what i did last year and this time was even trickier.Last year i bought 2 kittens at a time and was taking good care of them after 2 months time till i get tired with them.Last month, i bought myself 3 kittens at one time.One of them ran away to its owner and i left behind two. Since i was having exam, i wasn't really concern about them. As two is better one,I kept them,thought they might become mates or frenemy. Suddenly, one of those two kittens found out i was being partiality to the other kitten, it started get jealous and ran away. So,i left one,the only one. I thought to myself, this little kitten,hmm...I don't have time for it. So, i let it go. It went out and never return. Just then i thought i was free, the second-ran-away-kitten met me on street and came up to me like it was apologizing. I told it,umm..."maybe mama has something for you."I carried it back to me and fed it, treated it like king. I bet it was enjoying. Weeks past, it started to recognize its owner,me.But,this little kitten is special.It was an emo-type-kitty.Sometimes it was down,and sometimes it was excited.Yet, it was a very playful kitten.Never stop playing.It was active and one day,it ran to the playground and met another woman.A sort of woman that understood its language. They were intimate and unfortunately, it seemed to like her better than me. I saw them at the playground and wanted it to come back to mommy as i was gestured it to move forward but it was stuck with the lady so i gave up,turned my body around and peeked at it the very last time from the back of my shoulder,smiled and secretly wished the lady can handle it well.

eX Best Friend

I dun dare to say "we"...or "us"...i let "and" to draw us near...to the same line i wish i could get closer.You and I...just like the merry-go-round.You know, the one you see in a fun fair, the one you feel familiar to because you might ride it before with your mom or dad during a happy vacation trip or perhaps you just have seen it on TV. Laughter is inevitable. Yes you and i did. But you were at the corner and i was riding the other. It seemed like you and i were so close together and you could comprehend why people sang "so near yet so far". Exactly like where you and i were. The merry-go-round was going round and round.It seemed like you've reached to my position but then i was being moved around,never stay at where i used to be,"you came i went...i turned,you followed".It barely stop.But once it did,it seemed like you never tried to seize me from going off,from stepping down,from running away...you let me went...i was suppose to wait for you,but it was too late that i gone too soon,too far to hear your calling.As i was running abruptly i saw a railroad where i could tell you were sitting on the train stopped by,almost believing that you and i were so close to reach that famous happy ending. Just when i was readied to scream at your name,you pulled the curtain away, then i saw her. The beautiful girl was an acquaintance after i recalled,she was a friend of yours,probably a friend of mine. You cut in when i was wondering why she was here and told me she's your new girl. I faked a friendly smile and moved on. Ran was all i could managed to do. Tears suddenly burst as if i hadn't for awhile. You left me nothing but memories i could keep searching. I love you my friend. Togetherness was all i after, maybe you never thought we could make a real good couple even the people kept on telling how we got the faces.But i was there whenever. Just so you know even the emptiness is killing me,I'll let you go like how you did...i wont ever sing the song, you belong with me because all this time, you never know it was me who loved you more than she did.

note: Confession of a poker face's owner